Have you ever been
going through something that it makes it hard to see what other people are
going through?
I had this problem.
This is a three series post so
bare with me… I am about to bare my sole.
In April of 2010
Clayton and I decided we were going to add to our family. We were ready to
start trying to have a baby. Well for a long time that did not go very well. It
was really hard on because as everyone knows all I have ever wanted in this life
is to be a mom and I would have done it at 19 if I had just had a husband.
Now I had one and was getting worried I had waited too long. I was 26 when we
started trying.
Trial: I was 27 when
my best friend, decided she was ready too of course it took her what seemed
like to me one second from the decision to start to actual conception.
Confusion: This was
really hard for me. I was not sure why I was having so much trouble and how it
is just so easy for someone else. I was excited for her and at the same time
devastated and miserable.
I really had to
think, and decide what I wanted in this moment. I could either me sad that she
was pregnant and I was not. I could act how I wanted and how I felt and just
stop talking to her, or I could get over myself because she was my best friend
and I did not want to miss out on this wonderful blessing. What would that do
to our friendship and was I willing to risk something great because I was hurt.
I chose to get over
myself because I loved her so much and really wanted to be there. I did not
want to miss out on this great experience she was having I wanted to stay her
best friend. After I made the decision it was easy to be there for her. There
were days where I was still wondering why I didn't have that yet but, now I
truly was happy for her.
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